Lost some weight

I lost around 25 pounds over the last two years. In the last few months I lost about 10 of those, purposely. As a result I have absolutely no ass. I don't hate it now that I've adjusted to it, altho it hurts to sit sometimes. At first I was pretty embarrassed, flat behinds are not popular in the current American zeitgeist. Understandably so- I too appreciate a balanced body. When I noticed it I started doing glute focused exercises for hypertrophy.

But actually it's fine

But owning the fact that I am not any of what America upholds as Pretty (I don't have filler or a fat ass and I'm pale as fuck) is a fun experiment in being my own person. Like actually it's fine to not meet the Pretty Standards. Luckily most of it is just in my head since I'm able to keep interactions with assholes who are mean about it to a minimum. It happens when you live in a Latin community. I just don't look like them, so part of me gets that. The other part is just disgusted. Like no I know I'm pale, yes I go outside, no I don't give a fuck!!

I'm still hot Bitch

Anyway, forging my own taste for myself has been interesting. I kind of like the way things fit on me now that I'm flatter, and I like that it's for me alone. Dressing to accentuate volume and curves because it's "hot" always felt like I was hot to people I probably don't really even like. I fit really well into Rick now by the way- it's awesome. My body changing "negatively" aesthetically but "positively" regarding power output has impacted my confidence. I care slightly less about aesthetics (I do think it's cool to see my abs) and much more about the fact that I can do fucking anything. I feel strong, can crush long runs, push ups, and pull ups, eat a lot, and have decent energy. That's what matters here! I have since stopped doing glute exercises as a means of getting a big booty. I rather put that time into bigger compound lifts or stretching.

Also I got a new tattoo of a cute little sanrio/plush looking little guy wearing a frog hat! Sooo fuckin cute. I also cannot wait to finish my sleeve later this year!!!! I will look so sick :3